Ryoji stills again in the flower patch, wanting to listen to the first part of what Kai said more than the second, but afraid of what might happen. He... can't go through their last interaction again.

Once again, this is a question he doesn't know how to answer. He's been trying, sort of. But he can't be well the way he is and he's certainly gotten more reckless. "I'm alive." That's... what Kai wanted to know, right?