“Nothing.” How hard is it for Alec to realize that? But Koujaku knows that he’s the last person who should be begging for forgiveness, anyway. Intentional or not, everyone will always suffer because of his actions. That much this place makes clear.

“Just…” His thoughts are in shambles right now, but even then he knows he has to make one thing clear: “If—If a monster like me could still be afraid of dying…” What more a normal human being like Alec, who’d done no wrong? “Then you…don’t you think you deserve to live more than I do?”